Am i ok ?????

Actually i felt kinda emo this few days....

of course...

july 24th..this date... reminded me something...
something happened on 24th july 2008...



i...
been kicked out from my high school....
on that day...
i remember how YOU force me to walk out the school...
i remember i want to burn your office so much before...

actually...
this is nothing to feel sad for it...
this is nothing will make me felt emo...

but i just never forget...

how my friends cried...
screamed...
chased the dissipline teacher just because they wan to know where i go...
they phoned me...
the messaged me...
they do watever they can just to make sure i am ok...
but...


i cant even do anything ....



my parents....
i saw how they react when they first fetched me home...
they don believe me...
they don wan to remember i am their children...
i understand why they will felt so..
and i know they still love me..
but...


it's hurt me alot..
really alot...



i almost kill myself that night..
i cried...
and cried...
til i vomitted...
but i cant stop crying...
i cried for how many seconds,mintues,hours,days and weeks....


i been kicked out by my lovely high school..
the place just like my 2nd house...

only left 4 months...
4 months more i will take me SPM and leave tat school, y don u just keep me for 4 months ????

i have been studied there for 4 years and 7 months !

all my memorizes...
my friends...
my love...


of course..


i hate YOU... alot ..




my headmaster...

but..

in a positive side...
is good too....


at least...
YOU taught me how to appreciate my teachers...
my disipline teachers too ...

i saw their eyes with tears when YOU force me to left the school..
i saw they were standing in front of their office looking at me...
they felt pity ...
they felt worried...
they care about us...
they love us..

but YOU...
treat me like an alien...
my friends.. my teachers...
wrote letters..
collected signatures just wan us to get back to school...

but YOU..
YOU rejected..
just because your stupid excuses...
Screw yourself...

YOU made me experienced so much..
YOU made me pass all these hard time..
YOU made me appreciate my family and friends...

i'll prove to YOU..
i'll be more better...

YOU will deserve what u did..
what YOU did to two 17 years old girls...
YOU almost destroy their future..
YOU almost kill them...


i will never forget that feeling..
it's so hurt and so pain..


YOU...
better take care...


because...

you made me hate YOU...

and...


i am CRAZY TING...