the most stupid thing i ever did....

you said i hurt you...

you said there are some scars in your heart that i made and i did not know...

now...


i give back you everything that you said you ever gave me....

i apology to everyone out there that love me , like me or care about me...

i promise i would not do it again...

this is my first and last time...

i knew maybe you will never know i did it for you..

but..

the scars will always remind me about the pain i made you go through....

100th Post !!!!!

did anyone notice the traffic is getting worst ????

we always stuck in the serious traffic jam in the morning and be late to class T.T

i am sorry !!!!


these is few photos while traffic jam XD

i was not feeling well that time.. so i look terrible suck in this photo =.=

so damn ill =.=

i want to prove something about myself....

nowadays...

too much people is discussing about my relationship...

because my current girlfriend look like TB..

my exes look very boylish after we broke up too...

that's why....

there are so many people saying i love TB ...

i am sorry to say..

i cannot accept it !

i like girls !!!!! that's all...

i don't really want my lover is a tb actually..

just i accept the way they are...

anyway...

to prove i am not a TG or someone who just love TB...

i will show you guys my past...

she is just one of my close friends....

try to  look more detail...

i look very boylish...

this photo proved everything right ???

hahaha...

one year ago...

Ying- my ex is more girlish one NOT ME !!!!!!!!!

yeah.....

the one on the right is me XD

my hairstyle during 2008...

these two photos took at Hokkaido- 2008 chinese new year...

all these photos took at end of 2008..

one of my crazy photo..

just to share XD

na......

see !!!!

i was a TB too....

i like every type of girls not only TB !!!!

all my girlfriend is kinda girlish actually..

just i don't know why..

they changed after we broke up =.=

hahaha....

enjoy yo ^^

this is what i bought from connaught pasar malam...

is something cool XD


i am loving it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

understand what it mean ???





"i like girls that look like girls"

and..

the most wonderful thing is.....




we bought two of them as our couple shirt ^^

did you found the different ???

i have something to ask ...

what is this ???

yeah....

a lighter...

what is it so special ???

let's check it out ....

this is a normal lighter..

with usual size that we could get in 7-eleven...

this is the different....

did you see it ???

not clear enough ?

believe me...

it is HUGE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why ?

it been so long....

that i never question myself...

am i happy...

i live for something important for me...

happiness...

i can't lose it...



i always hope i could get everything i want...

i always hope the story will continue as what i expected...



but when all my dreams came true...




i felt i changed...

i cant't explain why did i changed..

and how did i changed..


i just notice...

i am not as cheerful as i was..

i am not satisfied to my life as i was...

i am not as talkative as i was..

i found i did not have any expections or wishes that i hope it will came true...

even i did not share anything serious that happen to me to anyone else...

i accepting every sadness myself and never show it out..



slowly..

i am not the one i use to be...

i lose my smile..

i lose my laugh..

i lose the energy to live...

suffering myself in the painfulness...


why ?

when did i lose the more important element in my life ?

happiness...