it been so long....
that i never question myself...
am i happy...
i live for something important for me...
happiness...
i can't lose it...
i always hope i could get everything i want...
i always hope the story will continue as what i expected...
but when all my dreams came true...
i felt i changed...
i cant't explain why did i changed..
and how did i changed..
i just notice...
i am not as cheerful as i was..
i am not satisfied to my life as i was...
i am not as talkative as i was..
i found i did not have any expections or wishes that i hope it will came true...
even i did not share anything serious that happen to me to anyone else...
i accepting every sadness myself and never show it out..
slowly..
i am not the one i use to be...
i lose my smile..
i lose my laugh..
i lose the energy to live...
suffering myself in the painfulness...
why ?
when did i lose the more important element in my life ?
happiness...
